"I got all I need right here."

That was the most profound quote I have heard this week. It came from my girlfriend the other night as we were discussing our "open" realtionship that has been moreso "closed" since the beginning. I just never thought I would matter to someone in the sense of being all they need. My life has been wonderful with her- even when I am depressed. I was just shocked when she said that. Wasn't sure how to respond. I think my response was something similar to "Ummm. Well damn! I never heard that one before." and then later, I asked her to explain. Let's just say that this is clearly one of those situations where actions speak louder than words. I understand what she means though. I had someone lined up to be my "fwb" but it just didnt happen... I wasnt really interested (nor had the energy) to be with anyone else sexually... nor did I feel like recupperating and mending the past with this person. It just wasn't important to me. I have just been into my girlfriend and our life together and enjoying it without plan or purpose to share right now. For once, I am content in all aspects of the relationship.

My "for once" list in a romantic relationship sense:
For once, I miss someone every single day.
For once, I feel supported in my efforts to make life work for me.
For once, I know that I can be totally honest about my feelings and emotions.
For once, I got surprised on one of those anniversaries that often go unnoticed.
For once, I feel appreciated 110% of the time.
For once, I don't have to worry about financial things ALL the time.
For once, my choices in life are respected and the love feels unconditional.
For once, I can learn how to think, feel, and react from a different perspective and appreciate the ability to do so.
For once, I am learning something new... like wine and Northern cooking (we are going to her family for Thanksgiving. And no, they don't know just what good friends we REALLY are!)
For once, I don't have to second guess how someone really feels about me.
For once, I feel the love each and every day and know that all that is put into making this work is clearly reciprocated.
For once, I am not afraid of being "left".
For once, I can trust. Totally trust. Really trust.
For once, I am the happiest I have been in a long time.
For once, I have no idea what to get my girlfriend and her daughter for Christmas.
For once, I will be spending the holiday in a new place and I am mighty damn excited about that... and have been told that I will be dragged out to shop the day after Thanksgiving.
For once, there are just too many things to blog in relation to "for once". :)

So, although no one has ever told me, being all that she needs seems to be a series of pretty good things. It still amazes me how our friendship has changed, how we have both changed our perspectives (whether she admits it or not!) about love and relationships, and how our days and nights seem to mesh without a doubt for the most part. I feel complete to a certain extent. I don't feel codependent at all... which I will admit, I did have codependency tendacies in the past. I guess I dont feel the need to prove anything at this juction of my life.

In a nut shell, all is well! No pun intended.